Pause.

Often times it feels like we are at a complete stand-still in this process. Although I know that isn’t the case, sometimes the feeling overwhelms me and I get really frustrated. Going into this we knew that going through the state would be a long and slow process and for that reason we considered going through a private agency. We were assured by Children’s Aid, however, that if we were adopting from the state’s custody (even if it is a state other than our own) it would be best to go through Alabama Department of Human Resources. And so we did.
Today is one of those frustrating days. Yesterday was one of those days as well. Tomorrow is in question.
This too shall pass.
I know that.
It’s just that we are so ready. We’ve been ready and what we are met with is an unwelcome answer: not yet.
On days that it gets to me…the times I want to call DHR and yell, “What's the hold up? Why is it taking so long?!”…I have to remind myself that it’s all in God’s hands and in His time.
Today I listen to Caedmon Call’s Table for Two and it fits. It comforts:
Well this day’s been crazy
But everything’s happened on schedule
from the rain and the cold
To the drink that I spilled on my shirt
‘Cause You knew how You’d save me
before I fell dead in the garden
And You knew this day
long before You made me out of dirt
And You know the plans that You have for me
And You can’t plan the end and not plan the means
And so I suppose I just need some peace
Just to get me to sleep.

Our family will be together soon. In the meantime I pray that our little one is happy and healthy and safe.