From the time we made the definite decision to adopt until now I have been guarded about who I have shared our plans with. It's not that I don't want to tell everyone. Quite the contrary actually. I would love to climb on our roof top and shout to the world how excited I am about our new addition! The best way I can describe my hesitancy is to compare it to that of a mother in her first trimester of pregnancy. There has been apart of me that has been afraid to be completely open until we reached a point of safety and stability.
Up until this point things have been so...chaotic, for lack of a better word. We have been committed to our decision but there has been so much red tape and run around that it's been hard to see the light at the end of the tunnel. Even though it is still slow go, I can see the end in site. It's been two years since we took our GPS (group preparation and selection) classes at Alabama Baptist Children Home and six months since we contacted DHR with the decision to go foward with adoption and finally (FINALLY!) I'm reaching the point where I have absolute and total confidence in that things are on track and in the right direction. I'm at the point where I can say "We're adopting!" without the fear that that will go away.
It feels so good!
p.s. Jonathan hasn't shared in this "guardedness" so if you feel like you have been left out...that other people have know and you haven't...it wasn't by design, I promise! And if you are someone who has heard this news from Jonathan and all you got from me was a smile and a nod and a "Yeah, we're excited." The above will explain my lack of detail about the situation. Lastly, if you're one of the people I have been an open book with about this, thanks for listening.
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