"Why can't I hear God?" My big girl wants to know. I love that she's thinking. I struggle with if I'm helping her find the right answer. It's interesting that she has that on her mind as I too have had similar thoughts. Mine are more along the lines of...I'm not giving God the chance to speak to me.
It was very clear to us that God was calling us to adopt. If I've known God's will just once in my life it was in this. In those months just before the girls came I was constantly praying, seeking, reading. As we have all adjusted so smoothly and as those around us love them like we do, it is blatantly obvious that this was His plan.
We've been scrambling around for the past three months...learning each other, finding our routine. My heart is so full! The downfall to this is that I haven't been desperate for God and have fallen back and lost my place in my faith. This past week it has been clear to me that I need to get back there. I'm 27 years old. I can't believe for one second that all I will do through Christ is finished because we were obedient in this one area. They are here. They were always meant to be here. It doesn't end there.
I write this for no reason other than I need to express it for myself. I need to pray. I need to read. I need to be quiet and give Him the opportunity to tell me what comes next.
I'm listening.
3 comments:
So true. I want to be listening too!
I told the story of you, jonathan and the girls to a patient today and she listened with tears in her eyes and she told me, "your daughter and her husband are very special." We talked more about her kids and your kids and she said that she was so glad that I told her your story. When she started to leave she just grabbed me and hugged me and she said to give that hug to you. I am so proud of you all....
Hoping to connect with other adoptive parents as we are on the journey.
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