Tailspin

So to add into the mix yet another thing that will inhibit me from spending all available time with my girls when they aren't in school: I was informed yesterday that their weekly "visit" with biological family would no longer be on Tuesday like it has always been.

I have begged for it to be on Monday so that it can be while I am at work and not conflict with our family time when I am off. I know the supervisor (the visit has to be supervised by a licensed professional) is doing her best to make that so but there really are so many cases to work around .

So this morning I am in a funk.
I'm trying to shake it off.

WE ARE SO READY FOR THIS TO BE OVER.

The fact that there is still biological family on the other side of this isn't mentioned much here, I know. When termination occurs I want these girls to be able to walk away free of the shadow of that life. I've been told that rights would probably be signed over voluntarily if someone would address that option with the family but that legally the only person who can do so is the defense attorney and that, "That's not gonna happen." So basically it would have to be their own idea and, so far, that doesn't seem to occur to them to be an option.

So we continue to wait for our court date.

The girls, for YEARS, have been hanging in this limbo. And in those years have been tossed from home to home. The number of homes they've been in outnumber their age. That fact makes me very sad.
Let's end this already.

I know that any other family adopting from the state (and maybe even those who aren't) will nod in agreement with the feeling of 'I just don't understand this system.'

Happier post to come, I promise. This is just part of it. I know there are many families beginning or going through this process who come here. I wouldn't be honest if I didn't let on to some of the frustrations that come along with this.
It's our labor pains, right? :)
Totally worth it.